It hurts.

It Sucks.

I do not like it.

I wish I could change.

I fear I cannot.

I have been isolating myself at work and I HATE it - with a passion. People ask what is wrong and I can only say that I can't say. I do not want to get in trouble or make someone think I was retaliating. I feel the grip I had on the office slipping. I have further hurt people and I feel like the grinch, only worse. I want to scream that I am sorry - but what if I say it to the person that I originally offended and they think I am trying to intimidate or retaliate or some other negative? The traps set by PC are endless.

I now fear every word I say. I am second guessing myself - wondering if I have offended again. It is slowing down my thoughts and making me nervous. I worry about it constantly - even out of the office. I am becoming obsessed. I even worry that what I write here will be used against me somehow - even though I know no one has even looked at this site.

I am drowning.

Partly in my environment, partly in my own self pitied isolation.

I

AM

SORRY

I want to be family again, but do not know how...

**The dog, by the way, is from 1957 and has really no connection to this post. I just like the photo.