Fantasy vs Reality

Someone once said that the problem with reality is that is is so damn real. I agree completely. It is nice to be able to sit back in fantasy and dream of impossible things. I mean, if you frag your best friend in fantasy, you know he will respawn in a few seconds and come looking to kick your ass so hard the Flood will look like a walk in the park. If you frag your friend in reality, well you're just an jerk who deserves to be made Bubba's new 'wife.' But as has been suggested, life cannot be lived in fantasy, no matter how tempting.

You will have to excuse the Halo reference. Yes you will, there is no arguing this point. I spent an enjoyable evening with my 14 year old last night waiting for Halo 3. We got to Walmart at 21:30 and the game was released at midnight. We were second in line. I had forgotten to pre-order the game, so this was the only solution. I also have to say that gamers, as a group, are generally pretty nice people. Some are a little odd, some are very odd, some are the usual rowdy college age folks, but as a whole, pretty decent people to hang around with for a couple of hours.

Anyway, it was, correctly (I think) pointed out that perhaps I am holding onto the fantasy of marriage; that I was holding onto some image of my spouse that no longer exists; that perhaps she is not who I think she is anymore. Not that she is a bad person, an evil person, or anything else in the negative. Just that she is different than she was and different than the image I have in my mind of who she is and what she is about. I want to say that this is in no way judgemental or pointing fingers or a game of gotcha. We hold images and ideas in our heads of the people we know. Sometimes, maybe without our realizing it those people become different from that image we have. We mourn the loss, etc, but it doesn't change the fact that our fantasy is different from reality. I will have to mull this over and deal with it. On the surface and after some reflection, it seems correct, but I still want to think it through. Reality sucks.







By the way, I didn't get to play Halo last night. Nor will I get to play it anytime soon as my two teens will be all over it. Somehow, that's OK. I enjoy hearing about it from them and watching them play. It is amazing to see the team work and coordination that flows from the game play. It is amazing to see their hand-eye coordination improve. It shows how old I am getting that they have surpassed me in almost all games except driving and RTS. I have been playing games for a long time - from pong forward. I like to see that the kids have a decent balance - they play for awhile, the go out and play football in the yard. They switch back and forth, depending on how many friends are over and how hot it is outside. I think I may have to get the latest Metroid Prime for the Wii while they play Halo3, but there I go again with the fantasy...